A True Companion
no less no more, it’s a perfect size of companion
I have one friend that has been with me since we were on the High School . Somehow we got attached to each other because… Well it can be a lot of serious to silly reasons why we are still together, but for me the most attached thing we have in common, is the way we talk, tell and response about the world.
The first time I got to know her, I didn’t say much, we got a flash hint the situation we were in, so we stood in silent with emotion up on our sleeves, until she said, “Let’s jump to the moon”. And come to this day, in every long letters we write to each other almost everyday, you would call me Moon and I will call you Mars.
But that also means, our fragileness is also the same. Our biggest weaknesses are insecurity, anxiety and so on, that we kept hidden within ourselves. As we don’t want people to discover how weak and fragile we are, that kind of worries, leaked out to the world as a cold demeanor and a little bit antisocial vibe. We have a fear toward pain of loving, and pain of hoping for someone else to love us. We thought that if we took a roles, we have to always do it right, and that kind of mindset only bring us disaster.
So even when we kept in touch gradually, we only know how much the other one struggling when we really met facing each other. We never told the other one the details, but we know we will have a hunch and same kind of struggling with each other, thus if we are in pain, we will pray. And we pray for each other, cause we know that the other side of this moon would be feeling the same. Later if all the worded-that more like codes has come to our ears, descent to our heart and make a pool of concern in our brain. Any vague advice we give to each other will be a base of our decision, when we finally deal our own problem, that was the perfect time to vent out all the remaining secrets that is not surprising anymore.
That’s how much we relate, we have same mindset, same faith so we might as well attract same problems in our life.
So I believe that a true friend, a true companion isn’t always there in every important occasions of your life, rather they will appear to you at the right time when you need them the most, cause they need you too. And that what makes us find comfort to each other.
Knowing that…
you need me as much I need you, you use me as much I use you, you feel my presence as much I feel you,
every time we meet, you value our meeting as much I value them, you learn from me as much as I learn from you.
and that makes me want to do a lot of thing together with you, cause I know that you will be another me, and I will be another you.
when we discover something new, we discover it together.
I feel safer, a little bit safer than ever, knowing that I have you as a friend, knowing that I have a companion when I might fall and trip in this world.
You take a big part of my fear and make it each other fear, so I don’t feel so alone. Anyway two same heads are better than one. So I feel grateful to have an extra brain ^^
Dari Bulan,
yang baru aja nangis baca jurnal kita hari ini, karena berkah pertama kita di bulan ramadhan adalah pelajaran manis kalau kita ini gak sempurna dan gak perlu sempurna dan wajib bergantung sama yang maha kuasa.
