…you are loved

On the way home, I suddenly remembered our childhood days, thus I miss my sister so badly. Even when we just met eachother this morning. So I met her.

We chatted for quite a while. Recalling the past and organizing our thoughts about it. We talked about our dreams too, what we really want in the future.

Sometimes there’re beads in our eye, along with laughter or subconsciously holding hands.

But when we were talking about romance, at one point my sister said,

“I don’t know why, I really have a big pride, I can’t easily giving myself to someone"

Upon hearing that, I had to advice her, I know… but instead I said,

“It’s okay… honestly, I’m glad that you feel that,”

“huh?!”

“It means. We love you enough.”

I actually feel weird, why did I say that? my sister was also dumbfounded. But, I lead my own mouth to move like their instinct to say more.

“…we love you enough so you feel save to refuse someone, or to demand more to them to treat you right"

My sister keep silent, I got a little bit convinced by my own speech so I continue.

“People who don’t get enough love will desperately begging to someone or take it from them, they will do anything to gain their love once they taste it, even when they did it unconsciously.”

I feel so bitter inside, but I’m glad at the same time.

“You know. You will always have a home to return to, you have a wall to rely on, whatever you’re going through, you know there will be someone for you. That’s why you don’t easily accept just anyone,

I know… people who love you aren’t perfect, but I know you know it too, how we love you, and how you’re loved, you know that, right?”

And then, I got the response I wish, that is how she looks into my eyes with smile and glistening eyes and be sure to herself, she is loved and she need to admit all of that.

Let them learn to love someone is important. But out of what is right, I want to make sure first, everyone I love knows that they’re loved. I really really want them to feel it, know it, and confidently said it to themselves. So I hope they will know how to value themselves and know that they can go back to me without any hesitation, no matter what the future holds. Cos they know I love them enough to help whatever kind of deal they have.

But, I have a question,

If the heart is like a glass, and I constantly pour water into it. Will they learn how to give the excess to fill other people glass or will they try to make their glass bigger?